Tuesday, November 15, 2011

I'm Caught Up!

Hey Bloggeritas!  I've created several posts on my blog where I try my hand at revealing my true feelings and my wicked desires about just how bad I want to be an "it" crafter.  You know...popular.  Ah hem (clearing my throat).  This is another such post.  Just warning you in case you don't want to read through this whole thing. 

Alright, it all started when I wrote this post.  Folks responded in overwhelming numbers (well it was 29 comments but, I've only ever gotten that many from a blog hop).  Then I started getting personal e-mails from people telling me how brave I was to put myself out there and say the things I said.  I started thinking, would it be too much to talk about this every other week?  You know, just write something about really wanting to be a popular crafter?  From the things people said to me, it seems like they'd like it.  I mean it wouldn't be self centered, it would be motivational, inspirational and FUNNY of course.  Me and myself told "I" that it would be too much and so, I never did it.  Maybe I should still do it...eh, I don't know.  Then, it'll seem like I'm whining or something.  Indecisive sigh...

But, today, I just wanted to kind of vent a little and poke fun at myself for obsessively seeking craft stardom.  Okay so, let me tell you how I start my day, after I get up and get myself and my family out the door, I'm checking Blogger to see what comments I got overnight.  I'm doing this WHILE I DRIVE!!!  Then, I get to my desk at work and I automatically log in to G-mail because I want to see if someone has sent me a craft related e-mail.  It's crazy!!!  THEN...I refresh Blogger about 100 times through out the day.  Sometimes I talk to it and I say...alright baby, mama needs a new set of...compliments.  Oh my freaking goodness WHO DOES THAT?? Me!  That's who!  Oh and what's worse...I don't leave very many comments on people's blogs.  I appreciate so many people's talents but, I don't give the love I so desperately desire to receive.  Selfish...the worst fish to buy.

Don't even get me started on the Publication Calls, the challenges and the DT Calls.  My feelings get so hurt when a card doesn't get picked up (as of right now...today...I am unpublished) or when I don't make a DT that I really want to be on ('cause those are the only ones I apply to).  Why can't I just be happy with the opportunities that I've had and the recognitions I've received?  Why must I want more??  Maybe it's my card making style...I don't really have a "style".  Maybe it's that I don't have enough crafty friends.  I mean real friends not FB friends.  Maybe I'm just not good enough yet.  Am I the guy that tries out for the football team when he really should be in the band??  Oh no!

I do this because I love it.  I just need to chill...right?

8 comments:

Jen W. said...

LOL! Have you been peeking inside of my brain?
Cut yourself some slack. You're cooler than you think. I mean, you already have 135 followers so you've impressed more than a few people. And you're winning more and more challenges because I feel like I've been seeing your name around a lot lately. I often feel like I'm still trying to find my style and fit into the "right" mould. However, my most successful cards are the ones where I manage to forget about the rules and trends and coolness and just create what makes me happy.

Karen B. said...

You never know if you will get picked to play football if you don't try out for the team right? Don't give up, please, you are an amazing designer.

Trina said...

I, too, am addicted to checking my gmail since it's the address my blog comments go to! All day long! And I'm disturbed when there are no new messages there...

Do you have to be published in a paper mag that I can find in a store, or does online count? Let me know; I'm on the team for an online mag and will make sure to send you the call info for the next issue if you'd like...

Ayana said...

Ha Ha! I am super open about the validation I get from my blog. Every new follower I get, I do a happy dance - and you currently have ummmm 50 more followers than me! That is a lot of happy dances you should be doing!

StephC said...

I love your honesty! You are too funny. And I guess I'm on the opposite side of the fence. I do it because I love it, and because of the joy I see on people's faces when they receive one of my crafty projects. For me that's enough. I've applied to several design teams, never to be chosen, and I've submitted for publication several times, never to be published. I came to the realization that those things aren't as important as my happiness and the feeling of joy I get from creating things for others. Keep doing what you love. Eventually you'll find a good place, where you're happy with everything. :)

LisaVB said...

Hi Rochelle. I was sent a link to your blog by my Design Team coordinator. We are currently hosting a Design Team call for our brand spakin' new stamp company and I would really really like you to apply for it. :)

I love your style of cards and I think you may be a great fit if you are interested.

You can see the call information at http://www.stampschool.com/2011/11/16/140/

Savannah O'Gwynn said...

DO NOT check email/texts/etc. while driving! I will not leave any more comments if you do! (just kidding--I will leave comments! I just hope you are driving safe!!). SAFETY FIRST:)

Second....you are not the only one who loves comments--I LOVE them too:) I was obsessed for awhile...but now I'm "chill". I think that we go in phases....I'm just enjoying what I do. I submit, try out, etc....and if I get in or picked up PRAISE THE LORD:) If not....PRAISE Him still! That is what I'm working on--praising in the trials or frustrations. So you are not alone. WE are in the SAME boat:) And look at that comment above.....a NEW DT!!! HOOOOORAY:) Good luck to yoU:) Lots of love!

The Paper Peasant said...

As I read through this post I felt a pull to the words that described your addiction / passion to your craft.....I believe that in the world of crafting, you are "normal!!" Ok, so maybe you go a wee bit over the top with checking on things (really...when you're driving??) but you love what you do and it shows in everything you create and share with the world!!!
Continue on on inspirational Diva creator.....continue on!!!